Letting Go

This is the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do
Figuring out how to stop loving you
I don’t know how
Or what to do now
Hoping today I’ll get hit by a bus
When I don’t, well that makes me want to cuss
I don’t know how to start
I don’t want to start
I’m not what you want any more at all
That is enough to make me bawl
I’m sick of feeling this way
Not knowing what to say
I love you
My love for you is so true
From the first Valentine of hoping you’d be mine
And as long as the sun does shine
Now I try to keep the crazy in
Figuring out where or how I begin
Why can’t you change your mind about me
That would give me great glee
It is not in the stars
For I have pushed you too far
So I talk as long as I can
I take as much as I can, trying to be strong, until I feel like breaking down and begging to be your man
Quickly bid you ado
And then ask G*D what to do
Some days are good
Others I wish I could
Be like you
And just move on like you do
Not saying you don’t care
Or do I pretend to know how well you fare
But be like you
And just move on like you do
I miss my friend so true
The person I could spill everything too
I miss dreaming about bitching about the weather
Or vice-versa depending on the tether
I hate the fact that you are the last person I think of
Before I go to bed and first thing I think of when I wake up like a dove
Pecking at the pillow
Imaging your red hair and smile so mellow
When will it ever end
If it follows the current trend
Only 10 more years
Hopefully that will be enough to take away all the tears
And turn my tears
And my fears
Into six feet below
And hopefully someplace with snow